And when the universe has finished exploding, all the stars will slow down, like a ball that has been thrown into the air, and they will come to a halt and they will all begin to fall toward the center of the universe again. And then there will be nothing to stop us from seeing all the stars in the world because they will all be moving toward us, gradually faster and faster, and we will know that the world is going to end soon because when we look up into the sky at night there will be no darkness, just the blazing light of billions and billions of stars, all falling.
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I love birthdays because we get to have cake in class (again!), plus plus today during the history lecture Joy passed me shortbread she baked! I’ve been listening to too much Laura Marling and Sleeping At Last. There’s still so much to be done and time is fast running out.
These are just ghosts that broke my heart before I met you.
Have you seen this girl?
COS SHE’S AWESOME.
Happy birthday Sabrina Ghazali!! I love you so very very much classmate/ teammate/ exco mate!! I love you as much as Sarah Kane grieved and Miranda July loved; you have changed my life with Sigur Ros and Yeah Yeah Yeahs and you are much much loved, my favourite Malay friend!
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And happy birthday to you too lah, Joshua Chan!
THANK YOU FOR JSTOR, among other stuff, like sharing my gross fangirl-ing over Michael Leifer! This photo is so unglam I literally LOL everytime I see it.
And it felt like two people meeting each other,
after an entire lifetime of not meeting each other.
You’ll be alright. You’re strong. I know you’ll be okay because I like you and you can’t like someone who doesn’t like themself. The people I fear for are the ones I don’t like because they hate themselves so much they won’t let anyone else like them either. But I do like you. I’ll miss you. And I know you’ll be okay.
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What if I told you I applied for Bristol almost entirely because of Sarah Kane, Portishead and Banksy?
Now that I’ve found you I can stop looking for myself
I made this today; image from tumblr and quote from Miranda July.
Remember this when you wake up in the morning
and think you have nothing
A small boy had an imaginary friend. He took her to the beach and they played in the sea. A man came from the water and took her away. The following morning the body of a dead girl was found washed up on the beach.
This my excavation and today is Kumran
Everything that happens is from now on
Crowd Kiss, William Lovelace
Isle of Wright Pop Festival, 1970
My favourite black and white kiss image after Robert Doisneau’s Kiss by the Hotel de Ville (1950), which is also my phone wallpaper.
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It is myself I have never met, whose face is pasted on the underside of my mind.
Please open the curtains.
I have this grief and I don’t know why
don’t say no to me you can’t say no to me because it was such a relief to have love again and to lie in bed and be held and touched and kissed and adored and your heart will leap when you hear my voice and see my smile and feel my breath on your neck and your heart will race when I want to see you and I will lie to you from day one and use you and screw you and break your heart because you broke mine first and you will love me more each day until the weight is unbearable and your life is mine and you’ll die alone because I will take what I want then walk away and owe you nothing and it’s always there it’s always been there and you cannot deny the life you feel fuck that life fuck that life fuck that life I have lost you now.
(more…)
I’ll make you mine if you would have me
With a silver ring that will hug you tight,
Our life begins
Our life begins with this
I’ll prove my love if you would let me
Over and over and over again
We’ll bring a child into this world
And we’ll say the one thing
Everyone should hear:
You were meant for amazing things.
Give me your hand, it’s time
It’s time to show new eyes their home
When fences divide our land,
I would catch bullets with my bare hands
Because you were meant for amazing things
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This song is beautiful, but getting harder and harder to believe.
if you would have me
I wish someone loved me enough not to expect anything but me.
Oh my God something hurts so badly inside that I can’t even begin to tell you the sheer excruciation.
I’ll do anything to be happy
